Dizzy happy circles

Today I was carried away by happiness. And then worried. When I get too happy, I can go hypomanic—meaning get stuck in the emotion of hypomania. Now hypomania is a perfectly respectable emotion (excitement, aggressiveness, optimism…I think) but getting stuck in it is bad for me. Especially when I can’t stay asleep at night because of it. And worse, today, when I couldn’t even focus because I was so giddy with my successes and connections. Wondering how the heck to settle down, I went to the car to get some full bags I had left there (reusable ones with handles of course). On my way back into the house, after making sure no one was looking, I began spinning, bags balanced in each hand, for added centripetal force. Just felt like it, no prior experience with this spinning thing…at least, not as an adult. Except to know that it’s really important to physically express overwhelming emotion in order to move through it and allow its complex information to filter through. I changed directions often. Until the last spin when I almost fell over, so I quit. Joila!!! Hypomania resolved. Simple peace restored. I am focused enough to write this blog. 🙂

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